“All of my plans for the future involve me waking up tomorrow with a sudden sense of discipline and adherence to routine that I have never displayed even once in my life.”
I posted that meme a few days ago on my Facebook page, and boy, does it speak to me! I try to do a reset every so often (the latest being this month), and set up a schedule and routine that I should be able to stick to. It all looks so good and simple, and it would let me get much more done. And I dive in, all eager and happy, only to fall back on old habits and then, poof all that great planning and getting done is out the window.
I don’t know why it is. Well, I do, to some extent. I am not the most ambitious of people, I am a champion procrastinator, and there are just some chores I hate doing. And that’s just normal life stuff. We haven’t even touched creative things yet. When we get to those, in addition to all that above, you can add in healthy doses of imposter syndrome and overthinking, and, well, things get derailed easily.
Which is not to say I am giving up. I still have that schedule and the plans. I still want to make it work. Some days, I actually do. Others, well, we won’t talk about those, okay? And, yes, there are times when it’s just life that gets in the way, but those are things that can’t be easily controlled. Still, there are many instances where I could, but I don’t.
I’m not really sure what I can do about it, short of redesigning my basic personality, and I’m not sure I’d want to even if I could. Well, I would change a few things. I just stumble forward, and try. Maybe try harder. And try not to beat myself up too much when things go off that nice, straight track.
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